Thinking…bitch Part II

Thinking. Yet again. About my insecurities. Zeus. School. Money. Love. Love. Love. Judgment. The kids. My health. My weight. Sex. Pain. Tears and why I still have some left. The Professor. Rejection. Excitement. Danger. You. Me. US. Your fingers. Poetry. Spoken word. Drugs. Alcohol. More alcohol. “friends”. My father. My mother. Growing up. Security. Random as all hell. Death. Fear. Hate. 11:11 and how I always make it, and dedicate it to you with a *4hk&h*. New Love. Where to find it. My past. My present. Who’s going to be crazy enough to take a chance on me? 21. SAGITTARIUS. Solitude. Suicide. TWLOHA. I’m just thinking. Just thinking.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

It’s Your Fault Too

The mother in me came out this morning when I hopped on Facebook. I clicked the “most recent” button, mine always seems to have 300+, and was horrified to see a picture of a naked girl put up by this boy I went to high school with. I clicked the photo and reported the picture, I didn’t realize you could only click it once *sad face*. But I was horrified for this girl. True, she shouldn’t have sent the picture but that was wrong as hell.

I have a love/hate relationship with the generation before my generation. Due to the fact that we weren’t just born this way. Someone had to teach/preach us the wrong things. For example, I would never let my son get away with the bullshit my brother did. My son would be at military school some damn where. But, my parents just took the L for every mistake, fight, weekend jail run, bad report card, hidden child, alcohol caused mishap, etc.

I also love how my generation gets the short end of the stick every time a record comes out. My parents like to say “That is crap, yall don’t know what music is.” but then say “They stole that from us…they need to thank us for that beat.” Which one is it? Are you mad about the song or do you want to be compensated? Everyone keeps saying, it’s only going to get worse. With an attitude like that, yes it will. Don’t blame us for your shortcomings in the home, because your too lazy or don’t want to be bothered with your own kids. That’s not how it works.

Yes, a portion of the blame can be put on the individuals. But, you saw a change in your child. And, since the parents are psychic, shouldn’t the parents be able to stop it? I always hear “You not slick, I did it before.” Ok, so you knew how his behavior was going to be? But their parents weren’t crazy, they knew exactly how to stop all that craziness. So, many parents are trying to be their child’s best friend when they need to concentrate on being a damn parent.

Just something on my mind.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Prima Ballerina

For ten years I danced. From age two to twelve I did ballet, tap, and jazz. I loved it, especially tap. But for the passed year I have found myself enraptured in ballet. Stretching, practicing my leaps, pirouettes, etc. I can still remember my father taking me to go see The Nutcracker and the heartbreak of us leaving early, because he thought it was boring. But I still remember how the ballerina twirled effortlessly through the props on stage. It was beautiful.

But I said all that to say that…I am minoring in dance. I’m nervous. What will my parents say? Am I even good enough? Am I too old? Is it pointless? What if they think I’m really good? Should I pursue this? I am aware that I don’t have the typical ballerina body, the torso atleast. My legs are strong ass hell and my arms are 90% stronger than I remember.

What will my parents say? They can’t say its pointless, because they paid for ten years of dance lessons. Maybe I could double minor. No. They won’t even consider me messing up my “important” classes for some dance classes. We’ll see where this goes.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

*I must really love all my readers, because I’m sharing personal thoughts more and more with each post*

Community Colleges getting overcrowded

I never thought the day would come when the community colleges would start rejecting people. It’s like a huge slap in the face when you get rejected from there. Needless to say, I would be beyond pissed. But with this recession what can someone really do besides find another community college to attend? That’s the thing though. You go to a community college to quell the costs of getting an education, only to find out that you have to go to another county that is more expensive. That, for lack of a better word, blows.

But, I feel like people are not doing what they have to do. Shopping hasn’t slowed down for many people. Cell phones, with monthly bills, are still as popular as ever. Teen pregnancy has skyrocketed, and the jobs are steadily disappearing. But, we will hear the same woes from this sea of people demanding healthcare. When they ask for healthcare you should tell them to look at their outfits and cell phones and tell them they could’ve had it. Your cell phone doesn’t have to be monthly, you don’t need to shop every week, and without a job what is the point? Responsibility is not a word that many people fully understand. We have go to do better. Sound off.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle’

An update on my life…

So..a lot about me has changed in this past year. I’ve stolen my mental independence and I am running with it…which is something like running with scissors.

I’ve created a list entitled 250 in 365..they are the 250 things I am going to in 365 days (One year for you slow pokes) starting August 24, 2009..fist day of classes @ Howard University also. I like to think of it as a new school year, new classes, new attitude about life, new hair..bump that..NEW EVERYTHING. So yeah, I borrowed this idea from a blog I stumbled upon and I feel like this will be a great project for me to complete.

I’ve also decided to go natural..no seriously this time! I say this because I attempted before but I decided to break and get a perm…not this time..i swear! Its on my list so I have to do it lol. I hope its as liberating as everyone makes it seem. I really need a HUGE change in my life. My old routine is boring!!! I can’t say this enough. But I’ve been bound in this love/hate relationship with a perm for about 11 years. That’s a long time to be in a relationship that gets on ur nerves almost every 6 weeks. Ill be doing lil updates every few months..lol it will be my natural hair journey blog…scratch that..i can’t stand those things. Ill jus update you guys with pictures every 3 months.

Just had to update you guys..

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle’