Quote of the Day:

“A slut is just a woman with the morals of a man”-Angela (The People I’ve Slept With)

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Thinking…bitch Part II

Thinking. Yet again. About my insecurities. Zeus. School. Money. Love. Love. Love. Judgment. The kids. My health. My weight. Sex. Pain. Tears and why I still have some left. The Professor. Rejection. Excitement. Danger. You. Me. US. Your fingers. Poetry. Spoken word. Drugs. Alcohol. More alcohol. “friends”. My father. My mother. Growing up. Security. Random as all hell. Death. Fear. Hate. 11:11 and how I always make it, and dedicate it to you with a *4hk&h*. New Love. Where to find it. My past. My present. Who’s going to be crazy enough to take a chance on me? 21. SAGITTARIUS. Solitude. Suicide. TWLOHA. I’m just thinking. Just thinking.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

The Fuck Buddy

This is my third time trying to write this by the way.

Okay, so me and Gabbi have this inside joke.

“But if I was a hoe…”

Make sure you emphasize ‘was’ by dragging it out and end it with joyous laughter.

Okay, so me and Gabbi have this joke where were describing if were hoes we would have no-strings attached sex with one of our friends.

I don’t want to ever think of myself as a hoe, I have too much self-respect for that. But I’m curious as to why these girls are flinging themselves at these guys…is the sex really that good? Are they trying out new tricks? What the hell is going on that is making these girls not give a damn about who they have meaningless sex with?

And this is the part where the joke starts to make sense. If I was a hoe, I sure would find the hell out. And I know it’s hard to be alone while you watch your friends go on dates and things of that nature, but you don’t want that for yourself? You just want him for the night and then have that awkward feeling next time you guys see each other? It’s not worth it in my opinion. I’ve seen how awkward a situation can get:

I’m talking to my friend.
His fuck buddy walks up.
She looks at me.
Looks back at him.
Walks away looking pissed.
Umm…awk-ward.

Yeah, I really don’t understand why just because he’s cute your willing to sacrifice your self-respect. Someone please explain this! It’s not like these are 30 year old divorced single mothers. These are barely 21 year old Howard University students. We have GOTS to do better.

Flex on the devil.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

“Who is he?”

I’m at the point where I’m ready, and no longer rebounding. But, I always find myself wondering if will he be ready. This HE I’m referring to is the next guy I will be in a relationship with. Will he be ready for my past? Instead of explaining who Zeus was..should I just let him read my blog? What if he doesn’t like the idea of blogs? What if he doesn’t understand why I blog? Do I have to explain that too? Do I have to dig deep into my past just to unlock the door to my future?

Am I really ready to be judged by someone I care about? What if he doesn’t judge you say? He’ll judge me. No doubt about that, he’ll judge me. Unless I keep everything to myself. I’ll just say Zeus is an ex and it didn’t work out. That way I save a hell of a lot of explaining. But if I can’t even communicate with him, what’s the point? Why go through the trouble of disguising my past with a band aid and a pretty little bow, just to pretend I’m who I am today for no reason at all? Okay, too many question marks.

This is difficult. Every other day I tell myself I’m ready, but the hurt me is saying “No, fuck it.” Is this how the remainder of my life is going to be? Scared to feel and love, for fear of being hurt again? I don’t know. If you would have caught me two years ago I would have had all the answers. But now I’m lost. I guess I have to just wing it.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

My Dirty Lil Secret..

I love gay men.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Post Secrets vol. 1

If he ever asked me to marry him I would say yes, and pull out the wedding plans I’ve had since last year.

I’m slowly losing faith in men, even the good ones are cheating now.

Stay tuned.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Play.

Zeus and I are off our break. *sigh*

I know your saying “WHY?!?!”

It’s not hard to explain. I missed him and his guidance and his voice. It won’t be the same thing this time around, I can’t promise that but I can be optimistic about it.

Just thought I would update my readers, without you I’m nothing =]. I really appreciate all the love (questions on my formspring) about the whole Zeus situation. Some of you even told me you were following the blog like it was a book lol thank you.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Perfect Stranger (The Sequel)

*vibration from phone*

Aden

Wow I totally forgot about him. How? After that pleasant encounter I blogged about. I need to place that accent! Anyway, I’m staring at the phone contemplating what I should do. Nothing is stopping me, but I’m scared to answer. Fuck it.

“Hello”

“Your alive!”

I appreciate his corny banter.

“Yeah, just been kind of busy” or something along those lines.

“Oh ok”

He can tell that I’m lieing, but is treading carefully. He can’t question me directly without being too forward. *sigh* the joys of having a vagina (sarcasm). The conversation is mildly entertaining. We didn’t talk about school, family, age, etc. The conversation went to the Healthcare Bill to food to kids, as in me asking him if he had any. I didn’t do it directly, but it was asked. The convo wasn’t as boring as it sounds..seriously. Ok maybe a little, but a tiny bit.

Still patiently waiting to see where this goes…

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

God.Weapons.Love.

I answered a question on formspring the other day. It asked “If you could ask God one question what would it be?” I answered “Why would you create a weapon like love?” A girl told me that was deep and that she never thought of it that way.

But I started to wonder if God knew what would become of the world when he created love. The most desired feeling in the world. Did he know it would lead to murder, suicide, depression, etc. or was he thinking of happiness, joy, that unexplainable feeling of two people feeling like they’re alone in a room full of people.
That’s the best feeling in the world. Hands down. You forget about all your troubles, and for that time you are together yall are chillin on Cloud 9. Name a better feeling, I challenge you.

But what if he did know all that, and just didn’t care? Maybe its a tough love kind of thing. Because, lately the world has been bitch slapping me. Helping me realize that maybe love should be put into Pandora’s Box. People use the term so loosely. Guilty. But when I said it and really meant it, it was powerful. I put my pride aside and didn’t care. I wasn’t aware that my life could reach a pleasure level so high.

“There is no fear in love; for perfect love casteth out fear”
(My next tattoo.)

I’ve lived this quote and I’m not afraid to do so again. It did something to me, and I don’t want the feeling to leave. Yes, Zeus still has a hold on me.

I’m just anxious to know why would God create a weapon so powerful, that could be so easily disguised?

Why did he make it accessible to everyone?

Why aren’t there rules?
Because sometimes all love is, is a game. A game that no one is the master of.

And does it ever truly fade?

If you could ask God one question what would it be?

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Im gettin mine..lets see you get yours!

I have never been a fan of putting people down, because of their job.  But I can say that if we are going to get into a relationship, then our salaries must atleast match. This may sound like I’m being a gold digger, but that’s not the case at all. My home will be in good neighborhood. I will be able to leave my chairs outside without worrying that they will be stolen. I will be able to run early in the morning with no reason to carry any weapon..(pretty much like a neighborhood I’m in now) I can’t have champagne taste with a beer budget. I do not want to live paycheck to paycheck, because that’s not the comfortable way of living. I don’t want to feel like I’m treating someone to everything because they don’t have the funds for it.
This is a sensitive subject for many, because the old way of thinking was that a man was supposed to bring home more money than the woman. I say old way of thinking because now a days we women are pretty serious about getting that paper. And with men knowing this, they get upset and complain about how they don’t get any play because were BALLIN! And they’re just scraping by.

Question: Would you jump into a serious relationship with someone if they made a $10,000 less than you? $15,000? Why?

My answer: It depends. If he is in a job that needs experience to earn more money then yes, not a raise at Burger King but a real raise as in several thousand.

And by job I mean career. Many people don’t understand that a job is temporary, while a career is what you can see yourself doing the rest of your life..which more than likely requires a degree. But don’t get me wrong there are jobs that are very successful that don’t require a degree to have you BALLIN OUTTA CONTROL lol.

Question: Would you date someone without a college degree?

My answer: Yes, if they had a successful career.

Now what are your answers?
Leave a comment =]

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle’