Stay where you belong

Where do I begin my loves? I’ll start with something light.

So my ex is out of jail.

I got a call from him last week.

“Hey”

Fuck “Hey”

“How you been?”

“Good”

“Nathasha misses you” (his daughter)

“I miss her too”

“I miss you”

“………”

The thing you have to understand is that we haven’t been together in over four years. So this whole “I miss you” thing is throwing me for a loop right now. Before he went to jail we weren’t together so why is he acting like I was going to hold him down while somebody was holding him down? But I digress. I want to know who his lawyer is. I didn’t expect to see him again until I was out of grad school in my career, now this psycho is hitting me up wondering when the hell I’m going to come visit him. Um…newsflash…I’m…going to wait to tell you guys that story =].

Needless to say, my summer just got a little more interesting. Stay tuned.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

What went wrong?

Why is it that when a female gets pregnant at a young age everyone throws all their despair, grief, sympathy, and negativity upon her. True, she’s going to have a hard time at some point. But all parents reach a point where they have to take a step back and really brainstorm, whether financially or otherwise. But when a young female gets pregnant some people act like its just the end of her damn life! People hand her all types of nooses and bottles of pills, because clearly she should just off herself.

But when a guy impregnates a girl at a young age its like “oh fa real?” It’s not as big a deal when a guy breaks it to his parents. He doesn’t have to start crying or apologizing or anything like that, and it’s not fair.

Society is so backwards and it drives me insane. They put all these pressures on females, but want to give us less power, pay, and respect. Go figure. A young girl gets pregnant and all of a sudden its “It was only a matter of time.” But there are less males in college. Again…go figure.

Does anyone else understand this logic?

I’m sick of these double-standards, especially when women are working toward a goal. I mean, who goes to college to get a degree just to work at CVS. Not knocking the fact that they have a job, but you don’t need a degree for CVS. But this is just a minor problem when compared to how this generation is being raised. I’m only twenty and I can’t believe some of the things that are going on.

How do you fix it? What has to be done? You can’t rely on the parents these days, some are just as foolish as the kids. It’s a never ending cycle, but what has to be done to break it?

Just thinking.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

3-6 years

Al got locked up this morning. I know it was drug related, that’s what he does. That’s what he’s always been good at. That’s why I couldn’t do it anymore. And its the reason why I won’t see him until I graduate from college.

Who do I call now? He was the one I could turn to when everything else fell through. If I could choose between him and Zeus I would choose Zeus, only for the simple fact that Al’s lifestyle was too risky. Who do I call now? Aden? Yeah right.

Is this a sign that something greater is coming along? You know how they say it’s going to get better before it gets worse? Well that’s what I’m banking on. I mean Zeus isn’t there and Al isn’t there, so is fate brewing up something wonderful? I’m not looking for someone to complete me, I really wish people would stop saying that. I just like being in an actual relationship, you have got to understand that. If I was looking for someone to “complete me” I could’ve already had a boyfriend. Not to toot my own horn but *beep beep* #imjustsayin. Guys ask me out on dates, but if I’m not feeling you it’s not happening. I won’t even be nice enough to give you a sympathy date. I just enjoying dating someone I actually, dare I say it, enjoy. (I want it to last more than 8 months)

Back to the main focus of this post. Al. I didn’t cry when I found out. I didn’t really react at all, maybe because I was waiting. Maybe because I was relieved. I wanted him to stop, maybe this will be the reality check to wake him up. Wishful thinking; I could never break away from it and I still can’t. I care about him and I want him to understand that, but I can’t do the whole visit thing. I can’t, it might erode the barrier that I worked so hard to rebuild after Zeus. It was never supposed to be like this.

I can only move upward from here.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Seriously..Grow Up!

So! Im back..im Black! Of course something happened that whole day i didnt blog..of course..cuz im Tiffaney Danielle’.

So my mother, nephew, grandmother, and I are headed to Seaside Heights @ 7 am. Why?? Because we had to go get my brother out of jail..yea..i kno..but i went anyway.

He had a warrant for his arrest..because he failed to show up to court…even though he told my mother he went. UGH! again with the lieing!!!!!!

Im sick of this shit! He always in trouble..always drunk..and never take care of his son..mind you he has 2 kids. He 27..its not gon change..i say kick him out but no one wants to listen to me..wtf!
Not to mention that when we all made it back home..he leaves right out with the same people that got him in trouble…i dont understand!!! This shit is crazy..but they let him keep gettin away wit it..

JUST AN UPDATE..

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle’