Dear Summer,

This summer might be different. I hope it is. I pray it is. I was bored and broke last summer. That means I was in the house on the computer, eating, watching the idiot box, or sleeping. While I did cherish that wonderful sleep, I can’t be idle like I was last summer. I mean ill be working and going to school (yay!), but that can’t be my life. That’s high school all over again.

I really don’t want to plan my summer, because where’s the excitement in that? But I do know what I want to do. (Ah yes! Another list)

-Go to Cafe Grumpy (Chelsea, NY)
-Go to Van Gogh’s Ear (Union, NJ)
-Get another tattoo
-Go to a play
-Build my portfolio
-Have a huge waterfight (lol)
-Wear my natural hair atleast once
-Meet Inka Essenhigh (i can dream)
-Go to a film festival (not likely)

What do you think? Not that I actually care, just being polite.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Perfect Stranger (The Sequel)

*vibration from phone*

Aden

Wow I totally forgot about him. How? After that pleasant encounter I blogged about. I need to place that accent! Anyway, I’m staring at the phone contemplating what I should do. Nothing is stopping me, but I’m scared to answer. Fuck it.

“Hello”

“Your alive!”

I appreciate his corny banter.

“Yeah, just been kind of busy” or something along those lines.

“Oh ok”

He can tell that I’m lieing, but is treading carefully. He can’t question me directly without being too forward. *sigh* the joys of having a vagina (sarcasm). The conversation is mildly entertaining. We didn’t talk about school, family, age, etc. The conversation went to the Healthcare Bill to food to kids, as in me asking him if he had any. I didn’t do it directly, but it was asked. The convo wasn’t as boring as it sounds..seriously. Ok maybe a little, but a tiny bit.

Still patiently waiting to see where this goes…

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Leaving the nest

I’ve been apartment shopping for a week now. I know! I am not financially able to consider the possibility of moving out of my parents home. But the thought is nice. Everyone is out there living independently and I’m over here begging for ten dollars just to wash my clothes. I can handle living on my own, I just need a real income. (I work part time at a clothing store)

However, I’ve established my credit. I’ve had my credit card since I was 18 and I have been paying on it to build my credit. Only now its different, because my mother is helping me with some of those payments while I’m in school. I envy those who have left the nest, because I still have to hear “Where, Who, When, Why”. Doesn’t it matter? I’m grown.

I’ve had a wonderful home life, but its annoying keeping up this front with them. I get noise when I lock my door..seriously? Why can’t I lock my door..I’m 20. What’s off limits to me, that I would want to do alone in the house with yall? Exactly.And its not like I have a history of doing reckless things, I’m the good child lol. But what can I do until then except wait?

Patience is a virtue.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

I hate this feeling…

These past few days have been extremely rough. I believe I’ve gone through every emotion in the span of 3 days. Seems impossible, considering the fact that I haven’t been diagnosed with a terminal illness.

Its hard for me to feel normal now. Not saying that I had the perfect fairytale life, but if you ask anyone they would say I was overall NORMAL. I don’t even know what normal means anymore. Its hard to decipher things when you’ve been feeling the way I have.

I’m not even sure about things anymore. I had my life planned out. I knew where I was going to live. How many kids I would have. What my wedding dress would look like. I have no clue anymore. Someone asked me about the future and I simply didn’t have an answer. I’m so lost in the real world. My dreams are evaporating and I still haven’t let go of the concept “You can’t always get what you want.” because I still say I’m a Princess when I should be saying Queen.

Do people really change? Is there really a force out there to make someone do a full 180? Aside from the drug addicts who finally realize they are killing themselves. I mean the “normal” people. Is there any point in waiting for people to change?

I need a big change, because I don’t like change. But I feel like change will be good for me. I really want to move. I used to dislike being the new person around, but I really need a change. Home life is the same bullshit.
I’ve changed the hair. Do I need more tattoos? Piercings? I don’t know. I need to fugure out something, because feeling this way isn’t healthy.

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Sorry I mislead you…

Dear qrs>T<uvw,

I'm sorry I played with your emotions and gave you hope when I had no intention (at all) of getting serious with you. But then again, I told you what it was from the jump so all of this isn't my fault. But, some of it is and I'm going to say sorry for that. I only fed into your little "flirting" because like I said, you entertain me when I'm bored. My bad.
I honestly thought you would've gotten the hint before when I tried to push you out my life..seriously, anyone else would have left.
Did you really think you were going to be the one to finally say "Yes! I broke down Princess Tiffaney!". Well sorry you wasted your time trying. When I talked to you late night..that wasn't boo loving at all..my sleep pattern was off because of my study schedule..and I can get my friend Gabbi to vouch for that shit.
Whatever the case, the friendship is over on my end. And hopefully whatever feelings, if they even existed, on your end have been erased. Maybe you’ll find another Princess like me..i doubt it but good luck.

Sincerely,

Princess Tiffaney

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle

Fall 09

Im finally a sophomore damn it!! yes!!! 1 year down and 3 to go…now on to more important things..

My first year at Howard University has been to say the least..fun..lol from gettin drunk to making and dismissing “friends”. Ive partied and studied and made my share of trips to the freekin A-building. But now another year is about to come and I cant wait. Im in a new dorm [Slowe Hall] its coed..so my boyfriend and best friend can hopefully have a place to stay when they come and visit me. I got new classes..thank Him…that will be focused on my major..no more intro classes =]. Hopefully the parties will be better cuz they were pretty WEAK and hopefully Gabrielle will be making more pancakes.

But hopefully I wont see these following “trends” next year:

NO MORE DOUGIE-ING ~ I HOPE THIS IS A DANCE THAT WILL STAY IN THE 2008-2009 SCHOOL YEAR. I UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS YOUR HOMETOWN DANCE..BUT!!! ITS TIME TO LET IT GO..ATLEAST UNTIL U GET TO TEXAS ANYWAY.

NO MORE FIGHTING OVER DUDES ~ COME ON YALL..WE IN COLLEGE..I DONT EVEN NEED TO SAY ANYMORE

DRUNK GIRLS IN MY ROOM WHEN I WANTED TO SLEEP ~ UGH SO ANNOYING SOMETIMES..OTHER TIMES IT WAS JUST FUNNY TO WATCH

DELUSIONAL ASS GIRLS- YOU THOUGHT WE WERE BEEFING? GIRL BYE..GIRL BOO..GO AWAY WE THROUGH..

GIRLS WHO THING THEY KNOW ABOUT EVERY SUBJECT THAT IS BROUGHT UP IN CONVERSATION ~ HOW ABOUT I TALK ABOUT PLASTIC BAGS AND CHALK ALL DAY? JOIN IN ON THAT CONVO AND SEE HOW MUCH FUN YOU HAVE

AND THE LAST AND MOST IMPORTANT THING:

DUDES WHO FEEL DISRESPECTED [WHEN I SPEAK THE TRUTH] AND TRY TO DISRESPECT ME ~ KEYWORD HERE IS TRY..THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN SAY TO ME THAT WILL REALLY HURT ME. YOU CAN CALL ME A BITCH…BUT ITS WHAT YOU ANSWER TO, SO YOUR JUST WASTING TIME AND ENERGY YOU WONT GET BACK WHILE I ENTERTAIN MYSELF WITH YOUR PATHETIC ATTEMPTS AT TRYING TO HURT MY FEELINGS.

LETS SWITCH IT UP PEOPLE..IM GETTING REAL BORED

xoxo TiffaneyDanielle’